I fully intended to revisit my New Year's Resolution of 2010 and write a blog every day. Yet here I find myself six days into 2011, and I am just now writing my first blog. So much for good intentions.
Right now I am suffering from a severe lack of inspiration. I am not inspired to write something amazing, charming, or perhaps even particularly interesting. There are stories I could tell about the kids, about the holidays, about my trip to Ohio to visit my family and my trip to Michigan to go to a friend's wedding. But, to be honest, I just don't feel like it.
My lack of inspiration isn't limited to writing either. I'm also having trouble with what I should make for dinner later, in spite of having a whole list of potential meals on my fridge which I planned at the beginning of this week. Nothing sounds good, nothing sounds right.
Of course, it doesn't help that I am constantly being bombarded with requests, "I need a snack, I need a drink, I need a paper plane...I need, I need, I need....Mommy, he hit me, Mommy, he stinks, Mommy, he took my paper plane!" It just never ends.
Some days things like that, while frusterating, just seem like part of the day and I deal with it and move on. Other days, like today, I find these constant conflicts and demands to be epecially wearisome. Today is a day where I need some extra grace...and a nap probably wouldn't hurt either!
Don't get me wrong, being a mom is great, and I love it, and I know it's exactly what I'm supposed to be doing with my life right now. It's also repetitive and tiring and hard sometimes. That's life. Despite what the movies tell us, life isn't always fun and sometimes the happy ending are few and far between, or if nothing else, the really good moments are the really small ones, not big, climactic ones. Some people have this figured out and they sort of take life by the horns. Then there are people like me who have to keep reminding themselves that this is real life, that it isn't nearly as ideal as they thought it was going to be, and that it's okay.
I'd like to end on a deep and philosophical note, but I just don't have it in me. However, I do hope my lack of inspiration has been inspiring to you :)